I feel like I should apologize for being nonexistent recently. I mentally and emotionally prepared myself for my entrance into full time ministry, or so I thought. The previous 3 ½ months have been a huge testing period for me. I never could have been 100% ready for what I walked into, but am certain I would not change a single day of it. I have found an environment that constantly challenges me and stretches my abilities. I am learning more and more each day.
Lets talk about what my latest lesson has been…Sometimes the people in my life are not meant to be there for long. God has allowed me to purge people from my life that may not be heading the same direction as myself; people who leave more negative than positive in their wake; people who liked the old me more than the new me. It’s been a hard transition, but the people who are still around truly care about me and encourage me on a daily basis. The jury is still out on some, but it won’t be long until I know. Sometimes it’s difficult to watch people you love walk out of your life, but I can say I have no regrets. I have given up the imaginary control I once thought I had over my life. Everyday, I challenge myself to do one thing that will make a positive impact on the world around me. I’m tired of living a life of mediocrity, of being afraid to challenge the norm. Nothing about me is normal, by the world’s standards. I am 26, not married, not actively dating, and not worried about it. I left a steady career in local government to pursue my call to full-time ministry. I would rather curl up on the couch, or in bed, with a book than go shopping. And to be honest, I am done making excuses for all of it. For the most part, I love my new life. Could some improvement take place? Of course, but I AM content and I AM getting better, smarter, stronger, more courageous, more trusting, more faithful.
***Guard your heart above all else, for it determines the course of your life.***Proverbs 4:23
