Ephesians 3:14-20 NLT
I can't even begin to explain to you what has taken place in and around me throughout the last 2 weeks. In staff devotions recently, Pastor Gene challenged us to pray the above scripture for 40 days. All I can say is be careful what you ask for. I can admit that the transition to full time ministry has not been an easy one for me. I have struggled to find the balance between "work" and life. Even Jesus took time to be alone, and I can honestly admit I haven't been taking that time. I took this past week off from work and just spent time with friends and family. I made every attempt possible to avoid email and worrying about what was taking place at work. It was nice. More than ever, I feel that there is going to be a new chapter in my life beginning soon. God is preparing me for something, I am just not sure what it is yet. But I believe HIS timing and that HIS will are perfect. Something so interesting happened to me last week that just adds to the speculation about my future. A couple of weeks ago, I was on the verge of breakdown and I just sat and poured out my heart to God. I journaled all these questions that I had about several topics. ***sidenote - I know some people have opinions on asking God questions, but I truly believe God wants to hear me confess that I am upset, hurt, and misunderstanding the world around me.***So, as a staff we have been reading a book entitled RADICAL by David Platt. I kid you not that within the first 5 chapters, just about every question I cried out to God was written in that book and answered. Talk about divine providence! From here, I press on. I continue to read the WORD and soak it all in. I continue to cry out to a HOLY GOD. I continue to walk the path HE has laid before me. HE has called me out and set me apart. Who knows what my future holds? HE does, so its HIM I will follow.